My
father is so dark, his passport picture looks like an ink blot on the
page. We laughed about it, although
really, it wasn’t funny that the equipment at the Immigration Office wasn’t
capable of capturing the likeness of a dark-skinned person. He also once told me that years ago, when he
was dating my mother, some people would remark, “konkas (a very large type of housefly) inna milk”. It wasn’t said
with any malicious intent, but I suppose it’s the kind of self-deprecating
humor that Black people have come to adapt.
My
mother, a teacher, was very proud of her culture, and went to pains to also
teach us about my father’s culture. As
children, my brother and I attended Garifuna language classes. To this day, I can sing the Belizean national
anthem, count from one to ten, and introduce myself in Garifuna. My neighbor, Ms. Emily, also happened to be a
proud Garifuna woman who hosted dance classes, and so we received much of our
indoctrination into our father’s culture via her. As for the Creole culture, we absorbed that
through language and tradition—my grandfather’s stories told under the house on
the large septic tank on Freetown Road in Belize City; my grandmother’s
cooking. As light-skinned as my mother’s
side of the family is, none of them would ever claim to be white, although it
is said that my grandfather’s ancestor was a Scottish man. If you’d ask them, they’d all say they’re
Creole, which in Belize can mean any variety of colour, and which literally
means mixed.
I
never really thought about these things until high school. And sure, it was Denzel’s realistic depiction
of Malcolm that triggered something in my consciousness, but without a doubt,
it was my father’s music that planted the early seeds. Sundays were his time to “beat out”, as we
say in Belize; that’s when he would play his music loud enough that it
reverberated throughout the house. Bob
Marley was one of his favorites, and also Burning Spear. I remember when he first brought home a Muta
Baruka CD and started playing it. My
brother and I didn’t get it. We laughed
at the strange mix of chanting and music and skits and what perhaps was poetry,
we weren’t quite sure.
One
day, I remember picking up the booklet that came with one of the Bob Marley CDs
and reading the lyrics of his songs.
Until the philosophy
That holds one race superior
And another inferior
Is finally and permanently
Discredited and abandoned.
Everywhere is war!
Until the colour of a man’s
skin
Is of no more significance
Than the colour of his eyes
Me say war!
Until the basic human rights
Are equally guaranteed to all
Without regards for race
War!
Until that day
The dream of lasting peace
World citizenship
And the rule of international
morality
Will remain but a fleeting
illusion
To be pursued but never
attained
Well everywhere is war!
At the
time, I wasn’t aware Bob was singing the words of Haile Selassie. I didn’t even know who Selassie was, nor
Marcus Garvey, from whom he also borrowed liberally, but I remember I started paying
more keen attention to Bob’s lyrics and regarding my father’s music as not just
his Sunday noise and old people boring music, the way my own daughter now
regards my old Tupac tapes. Like me, in
a few years she’ll begin to get it. She’ll
also begin to understand what Bob Marley was singing about. Unlike me, she’s already aware of Marcus
Garvey, since he’s a national hero of Jamaica and they learn about him in
school.
What
Bob Marley did for so many people around the world was awaken a self
consciousness quite like the moment when Adam and Eve first realized they were
naked in the Garden of Eden. Their
nudity was something that had never bothered them before; likewise, the
ignorance of the state of the Black person was a simple fact of life for
many. In some places—South Africa, the
southern United States—where the dichotomy between Black and White was a lot
more obvious, and obviously unjust, many had already come into this consciousness;
but in places like my little Belize, where racism was a lot more latent, Bob
was the one who began to change our paradigms.
For me, it was like a child learning to read. Have you ever been around a child learning to
read? It’s like a whole new world begins
to open up before their eyes. They begin
reading signs on buildings and streets, everything they can get their hands
on. They ask a lot of questions about
words they can’t pronounce and what they mean.
They are suddenly experiencing the world in a different way; things make
sense that never made sense before.
That’s
the power of Bob. The reason his music
continues to sell as much as it does, is that every day, a new generation of
young people discover him, relate to him.
Thirty-one years after his death, and on this, what would have been his sixty-seventh
birthday, Bob Marley remains culturally relevant to millions of people around
the world who, through his music, are just becoming conscious of their
Blackness and how that affects their social relations, their perceptions and
their identity.
It’s
incredible how much Black consciousness, philosophy, ideology has come out of
the small island of Jamaica, where I now reside with my family. Bob, Marcus, Louise Bennett (whose Back to Africa I discovered in Standard
6). Yet, so many years later, I find
Jamaicans still afflicted by an identity crisis. This is a majority Black country that refuses
to identify itself as such, and instead chooses to live under the illusion, the
national motto, “out of many one”. And
while I’m not trying to deny the existence of other cultures in Jamaica, the
simple fact is that they are a very small minority in a country where, in my
opinion, society has created an artificial division between Black and “brown”,
associating them in the antithetical geographical constructs of “uptown” and “downtown”
Kingston, the haves versus the have nots.
Three and a half years living in Jamaica and I’m still not comfortable
with being called “brownin”. Bob Marley
was the son of a White man and a Black woman; he grew up in “country” and moved
as a child to a tenement yard in Trenchtown, and so despite his “brown” colour,
would have been shaped by the social experience of living “downtown” and
growing up poor. So perhaps it is
through that existence and what he came to represent following his convergence
to Rastafarianism that no one would dare call Bob Marley “brown”, nor would
they deny that he was a Black man; I’m
sure he’d have it no other way.
And that's MY perspective.
This is an awesome post. Your journey to black consciousness is not unique (I began mine with Marcus Garvey in high school) and so I'm sure many of us can relate.
ReplyDeleteYour last paragraph has summed up the Jamaican reality well. We are a far way from embracing our blackness and shedding the inherent self-hatred in popular sayings like 'anything black nuh good', despite the rich pan-African philosophy emanating from our island.
Happy birthday Bob... The world has been a better place having had you!
Great post, Kalilah! I enjoyed reading about your background, and completely agree with the contradiction that exists in Jamaica... And yet, I still love Jamaicans for having greater consciousness and knowledge of their origins than many of their Caribbean neighbors.
ReplyDeleteIn Ethiopia we have the same issue - always have, even in the time of our Emperor Haile Selassie. In fact our Amharic vocabulary alone has SO many different words for different skin shades, you'd be amazed. And of course, being "tekur" (pitch black) isn't a good thing but being "kay" (red or super light skin) means you have pretty skin. And we can't blame colonialism since we never were colonized.
Happy Birthday to Bob, what a gift he continues to be!